Im just learning how to hold myself up without you

Saturday, May 22, 2010

lust, love and lists

I knew that my checklist was suffocating any chance for fun, I had added so many points that not one man could come close to ticking them all off! I found myself thinking that every guy I had met had fallen short of what I'm looking for. And even more so realizing that I had been hunting for a husband more than a boyfriend. So, if from now I start looking for a boyfriend, what does this checklist entail?
When did this process stop becoming romantic and start becoming robotic? Love and lust don't start with checklists and criteria, so why do I always let these lists push away any chance for a relationship? Is it that I'm trying to save myself from thinking I compromised or, is it that I'm scared they will later realise I don't tick enough of their lists? Either way right now boys are not the reason I'm single it's these checklists killing my love life.

J'adore Sophia Innez

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