locks and keys

We often fall into these holes in life when we feel as though nothing is going forward in our lives, nothing is going right, we're just stuck in the middle of nowhere - hoping that something , mostly someone, will come along and make us jump out of bed in the morning.. and hopefully back there with them later that night! But most of the time, this is just the thought crippling our lives. I'm still dragging myself out of bed and returning solo. And for too long i was moping about how alone i was and plus one all my friends were. Relationships seem to make us more content with the smallest things in life, they create a sense of euphoria that we don't seem to be able to do ourselves. So i wondered, do guys ultimately have the key to our happiness? Did we give them this key when we told them we liked them? And most of all, can we ever get it back?

Its like we have this lock and key system to our heart. We give out the keys to those we love and when we let them in they make our heart beat faster and harder. When they leave we lock it back up, but they still have the key, and we don't change the locks because we itch for that heart that beat faster and harder.

I remember giving out my first key. i haven't asked him for the keys back. I still yearn for the heart race. But its starting to kill me. So its time to change the locks and get new keys - for new love.